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13/07/24
Always been fond of these two, particularly Lopmon. Always found it kinda cool how it turns into something as off-putting as Wendigomon.
I guess i liked their role in tamers too and i think Antylamon is quite cool too.
I'm fond of Cherubimon as a final stage but I've always thought it'd be out of place depending on the context.
14/07/24
Living alone feels isolating. Its peaceful though and I can do things at my own pace too. Only wish i had more of a reason to go outside,
other than having to go to work or take walks. I feel like a neet sometimes. Or a shut-in, that'd be more approiate to say.
15/07/24
Not sure if this is gonna end up being a blog type thing or not but im gonna continue typing whatever I'm thinking here.
Estou aprendendo Portugues. Eu nao sei se eu fala bom mas tento. Eu leio e entendo alguns palvaras mas audiçao é dificil.
just found out these things are called blinkies apparently. I know the internet culture has shifted drastically but i miss things like this sometimes.
Lethal company scares the crap out of me. I'm not made to feel that kind of adrenaline.
16/07/24
I dunno if I will really end up doing coding stuff seriously. It's fine and all but some stuff just gives me a headache. Just feels like its going through my head one side and then straight out the other side. Maybe I'm just overthinking.
this character gives me a headache too. 100%ing that game was mentally tiring at times.
I was kinda surprised to find that she's still popular though. Saw a lot of people cosplaying her at comicon.
17/07/24
I miss playing animal crossing on the 3ds when the online servers were still up. Though after a certain point, you pretty much had to go on reddit or discord to find people to play with but it was still fun. I haven't played the one on the switch because it doesn't look like it'd be as fun and I don't like the island vibe as much and the music isn't as good in my opinion.
I know its wrong but sometimes I feel mildly envious whenever I rarely go outside for something that isn't work and see friend groups hanging out. Of course their's no point focusing on people that have nothing to do with me but I haven't gone out with friends in forever.
18/07/24
Went to comicon for the first time last month. I had no idea it was happening before a guy in an elevator told me. I then proceeded to stumble my way other their using google maps until I found where i needed to get off.
It was a neat experience and I liked it a lot. Pretty much the only time I've ever been in a place where I felt outnerded by those around me.
Anyway long story short I saw a bunch of cool stuff and cool cosplays and I wish I brought more moneeeeeeey.
19/07/24
I've found it to invest time into longer games nowadays. I was playing the golden age FF games back to back to back back in 2021, yet now I just find it hard to get into rpgs at all.
It's probably just because I have less free time compared to back then and playing shmups and fighting games made most other games feel sorta slow paced.
Though I have been playing the mario and Luigi game on the gba and I'm enjoying that. I don't really pay attention to the plot but some of the dialogue is amusing and I like how involved the gameplay is.
20/07/24
Quiet weekend as usual. I don't know if complaining about lonliness at all is arrogant of me considering I'm not in the worst case scenario.
I'm not completely devoid of social interaction but it all feels shallow to me a lot of the time. I suppose I just don't vibe with the people I'm around. Not to say that I think less of them or act badly against them because of this, though I've been told I come off as hostile most of the time.
I feel kinda distant from everyone I'm friends with irl too because I am either in another country or I just the ones that are around me never want to or are too busy to hangout.
Online buddies are alright and kinda the only people I talk to somewhat consistently other than my mom. Wish my internet wasn't so terrible so I could at least ignore all this with the thrill of fighting games. Feels rather pathetic to complain about all this so I'll talk about something better.
Eu era lendo Kiseki no Kuni e eu gosto isso página. Eu assisti o anime antes e muito gostei. Tambem comei spaghetti. Bom.
21/07/24
Feeling alright today. I think games just tire me more than they used to. I play a shmup and I get that rush of adrenaline that can be cut off near instantly if I make a dumb mistake which I do often. I haven't 1ccd a shmup in a while but they are still fun.
Fighting games don't tire me as much though. It gives me the sensation of fighting to the death, like just look to King Bradley's speech to scar in FMAB. That's pretty much how I'd describe how fighting games make me feel.
As for other games, they usually just end up boring me most of the time but not all of the time. Maybe it's just because I find it harder to sit down for long periods of time to play rpgs and stuff like that. I did play some Tsukihime today and that was fine. My interest in playing it mostly stems form having played Melty Blood to be honest.
26/07/24
Apparently my computer screen has been slighty zoomed in the entire time I've had it. So when i changed it to how it should be the layout for my webpages were kinda messed up and I have to fix all of that. Eventually. And learn responsive web layout too. Eventually.
01/08/24
Ainda aqui. Eu sou doente, entao eu sou em minha casa para agora. Estou aprendendo japones. Não é dificil... para agora.
06/08/24
No longer sick, my nose is still stuffy. I've been trying to keep myself more occupied nowadays so I don't get bored and just do nothing.
I might consider travelling at some point. I'd likely have to go alone which makes me nervous but I'll see how it goes when the time comes.
I think I were to go somewhere Id probably just end up roaming around quiet places if I could find any.
Actually, I'd probably take pictures I ike doing that but to be honest I'd feel self conscious of doing that due to not wanting to appear as that kinda tourist.
13/08/24
I got a lunatic 1cc of Imperishable Night yesterday. I had got close to one last year but gave up. The run wasn't very good but it is what it is. I feel like I make touhou games in particular harder for myself by because I constantly tell myself not to bomb until a certain point or the run wont be clean enough but really, it doesnt matter, especially when just trying to 1cc
16/08/24
I`ve been playing a lot of kh2 recently and I`m in the last stretch of the game now. I`m feeling very melancholic about being close to the end of the game, in a bittersweet kind of way. After making sure to do all the worlds to completion, which I didn`t do when I first played the game, seeing Sora bid farewell to the friends he made along the way just made me feel weirdly emotional. I`m not really sure why but it just tugged at my heart strings, especially in Atlantica, 100 acre woods and the grid. Anyway once I'm done I'll probably type a review on the thoughts page.
17/08/24
Well I've beaten it. It's been a while since I've beaten a game that isn't a shmup. I feel sorta sad that it's over and the ending still got to me after all these years.
25/08/24
Thinking about making the new theme of the main page consistent throughout all the other pages, but there will still be an option to see the original layout.
Being around other people my age on a uni campus is exhausting and makes me feel bitter. Sours my mood.
11/09/24
Been feeling particulary nostalgic recently. Grew up mostly watching Data squad since it was on tv at the time but I watch everything before it on youtube and saw tamers when I was young and it was still on Jetix. Despite basically watching them all around the same time I defnitely got nostalgia for tamers the most and think it's the best and that totally isn't because of personal bias. I like the original adventure series quite a lot too including the movie which I feel extremely conflicted on. I'm 100% got my nostalgia goggles on whenever I think about it and can acknowledge the not so good things about it, but despite that, I'm sure there is something of value to be found in it, especially considering they mashed together 3 different short films and tried to make it work.
Though I wasn't born in the 90s, the digimon kinda feels like a time capsule of thatt time because of it's music and the presence of crt computers and stuff like that, yet it does feel like it has aged that badly. Though to be honest I should just watch it again to see if it actually does hold up. As I typed all that I realised I was mostly talking about the Our War Game section, it is the best part for sure and and hurricane touchdown is it's own mess but I do like the art direction and vibe of it. Feels kinda dream like and eerie at times. Plus it has Lopmon so thats a cool.
Also I played the games on the ds and I think they are neat and the only reason I'd play them again nowadays is to just grind my favourite digimon to max stats and then revert them to rookie forms with said max stats because I think that it's cool that you can do that.
13/09/24
Acho que a condiçao do site esta boa. Parece muito melhor agora e esta mais coesa. Penso que a sò pagina que precisando ser atualizado agora, é a pagina de musica.
30/09/24
I've been listening to a lot of Brazilian mbp and bossa nova recently and I like it a lot. Go listen to LoBorges and Nana Caymmi, I enjoy listening to their stuff. Other than that I've been listening to Buzy's songs that aren't Be somewhere and Those are good too I suppose but Be somewhere is in a tier of its own. Also some alt rock bands from the late 90s to 2000s, I cant describe the feeling properly but some of those songs left me feeling like melancholic/nostalgic.
Also also I was trying to find out more about condor44 and it seems they were last active in 2014 but other than that I haven't really learnt anything else about them. Their old website domain was bought by someone else around 2015 and it seemed to be some family planning site and then later around 2021, was made into some kinda erotic literature site but I wasn't sure, it was all just text though.
11/10/24
It's getting to midnight right now and I should be asleep but I was reading Mahoyo and got to that part, if you know, you know. Anyway I just wanna say that that particlrular scene made me go
"THATS MY GOAT, AOKO FREAKING AOZAKI. COMEÇA ASSOLANDO CU DELA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
yeah. Just wanted to get that out of my system.
23/10/24
só quero dizer que br Miku, e todos da diferentes Mikus creado de que tendencia eram muito legal. Muitas desculpas por o meu terrivél gramática.
17/11/24
played project diva for the first time yesterday and went to bed feeling like this.
23/11/24
I didn't really notice it until today but I've stopped playing shmups recently. It feels kinda weird since I was kinda breathing and living shmups over the past 2 years when it came to the games I played, but I guess that time has passed and I've moved on.
Anyway, I've been pretty engorssed in vocaloid thanks to Project Diva so that's all I'm really playing nowadays, with some Tsukihime on the side. I still need to do the extra side stories to 100% Mahoyo and then when I'm done with that and Tsukihime I'll read Fate stay/night, completing what I see to be the primary 4 Nasu titles, including Kara no Kyoukai.
I was listening to a playlist last night and then some song from mario party 9 came on and it has left me feeling incredibly deep in thought and nostalgic. Like, it made me think how I took things for granted, those innocent times that I look back in with rose tinted lenses.
I would obviously look back and think those were 'better' times, since I was an ignorant and I had no responsiblities or real problems but sometimes I wonder if things were truly better back in the 2000s. Of course you can't generalise a time period like that because not everyone my age would have had an ideal to decent childhood, that in it of itself is a privilige, but for me at least the idea, the memory of that time will always give me the feeling of longing.